Fear

I. you linger deep in the shadows, anticipating an attack when i’m most vulnerable. alone and unbeknownst to me; that maybe i’m not really solitary. for there you were: lurking, awaiting, like a predator to its prey, my sanity, you want to claim. II. but the closer you get, the more i can feel. heart…

(not really) New Year

Waking up to a new dawn, the calendar has stopped. Scared of change, not looking forward to another start. But there’s nothing to worry about! Just like the calendar regenerating a new set of numbers every year, providing a false hope of ending last year’s miseries and establishing fresh reveries; everything will always be the…

Hereafter

The nostalgia’s been annihilating. I don’t know why heart swells and my chest palpitates upon coming across old songs and movies that remind me of good times of the past. But in a way, I kind of understand. I’ve always been scared of the future—because I never see myself in them. -fin-

Vague

I come and go, I ebb and crash; sometimes persistent, sporadically ambivalent, mostly unexpected. Drowning is often, but just to see you once or twice over and over, I come and go, I ebb and crash again; unsure and unclear of where I am in a vast ocean connected to a skyline that would take…

Tonight We Are Victorious – A Saturday Night @ #PrayFortheWickedTourMNL (20-10-18)

PLAN FOR THE WICKED  Upon hearing the news about Panic! at the Disco visiting and performing live in the country once again (after two years #InTheMix2016; thank you so much MMILive, Ms. Rhiza Pascua, and of course, ate Claire as well), I immediately notified my best friend Rochelle (who was in Perth, Australia that time)…

Depression (Another Poem)

but when i said ‘living on the edge', this was never what i meant. what i meant was real party all night without parents’ permission; not a pity party at night with my self-destructing notions. what i meant was real rollercoasters, or go on life adventures; not roller coasters of all my life’s emotions. what…

My Journey With the Sun

I start from the beginning when a ball of fire emerges from the east, passing a row of ancient trees as it climbs towards the heavens. A new dawns arises forming high hopes and outstanding opportunities. I am ready to conquer everything. The sun soars, along with my aspirations, higher and higher; My shadow unseen…

Wheel of Fate

They go on a ferris wheel; spinning round on the same path. Travelling next to each other, facing the same fate, same chances they create, but never together. It ends before it begins; circles and circles they go until it stops without them ever meeting each other at the top. -fin-

Nightmare

I woke up gasping, crying, shaking, my heart pounding as my body's trembling. Relief--I felt for the time-being, 'cause I saw your face when I woke, darling. 'I'm here, worry not,' you were speaking. I nod and hug you, totally believing. You kissed my forehead as we continued snuggling. 'I'll always be by your side,' --…

Cracks

Closed-off, silent, thoughts mysteriously hidden. Opened, interrupted, thoughts suddenly enlightened. Walls cracked, core has been seen, barriers torn down. Scared of a repeat, afraid to commit, it's time to retreat now. -fin- (featured image: skulpt on deviantart)